back of my mind

was at work and the is being who is always in the office area and wants you to do this and that, this time I told her that I seem to work for her only and not for the rest of the 120 beings that am suppose to be working for, I realized that this is accumulation of back chats that I have been building because the being is there everyday and cannot let you work , I remembered fuck what did I just tell her, mind was now telling me that that is verbal abuse, so I realized mind fuck where mind wants you to fear for telling one the truth, fear of loss, so took a breathe and remembered fuck it not real. self forgiveness, self honesty, self directive principle. stopping the mind.